It will be...

It's been a stretching few days. So I took some time out tonight to relax and reflect and made this.

Thankful for my dad!

Dear Jesus, 

Thank you for my dad! Thank you for allowing me to have the blessing of an earthly father that loves me so much. 

I'm scared of losing my dad, I wanna be sure he knows how much I love him, how thankful I am for his love, guidance, coaching, listening ear, advice, and for pointing me endlessly to Yourself. He taught me to love and respect all of creation. He showed me this as he cared for the homeless and hungry, and as he took care of injured creatures and gave countless pets a home! He taught me to have fun in that we made kites together, he built us a sledding hill during the blizzard, the same blizzard he walked miles through the snow in to help others. Swimming, canoeing, hiking, penny candy stores, yard sales, ice cream, horses, 4-h, boyfriends, dances, my memories are full of his provision, protection, love of life...love for his family! 

How do you face this? How, while your heart breaks, do you mourn continual losses as dementia whittles away the man you know, love, and call Dad? It's overwhelming and consuming.

For now, I get through the days...I pray....I cry...I get angry....I reason with myself about who I'm getting angry with and why that's not fair...I accept...I pray the Lord take him home, make him whole...I cry...

Jesus, thank you for my Dad!

Funnies

Beaver and I were having a disagreement. "A" piped in from the backseat, "don't worry beaver, girls are from Venus!" I replied, "thanks a lot, A!" Trying to back track he said, "no, not you Mom, I'm talking about other girls, like the ones in my class! You are from Mars like boys!" 

#eyeroll #fail

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One child, who shall remain nameless, has been on a stealing binge. Tonight, he was at it again and made to stand in time out. A meltdown ensued in which we were informed, once again, that we are the worst parents EVER and that Beaver is "the meanest dad in the world!!" Along with a bonus insult, "Meaner than...than...The Devil! 👹

To which the other child reacted by instantly jumping up from where he was coloring, sarcastically throwing up his hands and chanting, "I am the son of the Devil!" Then hugged me and exclaimed gleefully, "I love you, Devil Mom!" 

#comicrelief #happytoknowimreallyachildofTHEKING #oyvey

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I had the boys today while Beaver helped a friend. We dropped beaver off and headed home to get the boys breakfast. We stopped at a church sale where D picked out a super hero costume. 

We got home, had breakfast, and I kept thinking about the blender I had seen. So, back in the car we go. About 3 sales later I noticed I didn't have D with me after all, but a super hero, cape and all (minus shoes...oops!). Did not get the "observant mom of the day" award! I did get a few comments...lol...but hey, life is too short to leave your cape at home!

At one sale he was given a stuffed ninja turtle. I was standing at another table and they did not know he was with me and the wife said, "you just gave that away?" And the husband replied, "he was dressed like a super hero, how cool is that...you can't take money from a super hero!" I chuckled to myself and wished I had a super hero costume so I didn't have to pay for the items I had chosen, lol!

A few others just gave strange looks....but meh, I really did not feel the need to explain anything to anyone!

 “All grown-ups were once children... but only few of them remember it.” 

― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

Penis vs Penance

D is in the backseat reading a Garfield book. He laughs out loud and says, "guys you have to hear this it is so funny!" He proceeds to read the comic strip to us about how John gets after Garfield for stealing his lunch and John says, "that's not nice Garfield" to which Garfield replies, " how about I shave my head and penis?!!" 

In unison Beaver and say incredulously, "What??" As we reach in tandem for the book! 

I get the book, quickly read it and say, "that's Penance D, not Penis!" "Oh," he laughs..."what's penance?" After I explain penance to him we all chuckled! 

Oh my, you just never know!!