Thankful for my dad!

Dear Jesus, 

Thank you for my dad! Thank you for allowing me to have the blessing of an earthly father that loves me so much. 

I'm scared of losing my dad, I wanna be sure he knows how much I love him, how thankful I am for his love, guidance, coaching, listening ear, advice, and for pointing me endlessly to Yourself. He taught me to love and respect all of creation. He showed me this as he cared for the homeless and hungry, and as he took care of injured creatures and gave countless pets a home! He taught me to have fun in that we made kites together, he built us a sledding hill during the blizzard, the same blizzard he walked miles through the snow in to help others. Swimming, canoeing, hiking, penny candy stores, yard sales, ice cream, horses, 4-h, boyfriends, dances, my memories are full of his provision, protection, love of life...love for his family! 

How do you face this? How, while your heart breaks, do you mourn continual losses as dementia whittles away the man you know, love, and call Dad? It's overwhelming and consuming.

For now, I get through the days...I pray....I cry...I get angry....I reason with myself about who I'm getting angry with and why that's not fair...I accept...I pray the Lord take him home, make him whole...I cry...

Jesus, thank you for my Dad!