Intercession Needed

My heart is burdened tonight, for our kiddos.  So many struggles over the past few months and now the residential facility has given notice that they can no longer handle the behaviors so another placement will need to be found.  There is no place in MI willing to take him, so although the search has begun out of state, the Case Worker is leery to make this move on account of what this will do to both kiddos.  He is on a waiting list for a place within MI but according to a recent phone call it could be several months to a year.

 
Sadly, in a stupid move and despite conversation and agreement that no one was to tell D until a placement was secured, the lawyer told him at a court hearing recently.  We were sitting there waiting to go into court when he came back from speaking with the lawyer and was a different kid, devastated, withdrawn, and full to the BRIM with anxiety.  It was with such sad hearts we realized what took place and we began to talk him through it, and hugged him tight as he once again wrestled with the demons inside him telling him he was bad and that he wasn’t wanted.

 
Remember, this is the kiddo that saw his heart on Ultrasound and thought it was black vs red because it was bad. He about crawled off the table in fear until it dawned on me what was taking place. I quickly explained it to the tech who instantly flipped on the color so he could see the red and blue blood his heart was pumping and reassured him he was good, with a good heart with good red blood.


So, weeks later, after being told by the lawyer about having to move placement, he is still struggling in such outright and defiant ways.  When we saw him on Wednesday he hugged and held on like never before, as we left he walked backwards back to the schoolroom watching us get in the car and waving until he had to turn around...we drive away and we cry...and later his feelings and anxiety get the best of him and he acts out again and again...

 
We feared this would be the reaction toward the facility; it is like he is saying, “You are getting rid of me, I can act as bad as I want to.” Unfortunately, it’s so extreme that we are afraid they won’t let him stay there until he can get into the more intensive program. in the past month or so he went from 5th on the wait list to 2nd. Lord, he needs this program!! In the meantime, here we are struggling beyond belief with his brother. A few of you know what has been taking place and we are so thankful for the prayers, understanding, hugs, and most of all the acceptance when we have felt at an all-time low. EXHAUSTING!

 
We have stepped back from life in order to gain some control over what is happening and get the help we need. PCPs, School Principal, Therapist, Case Worker, Adoption Support Network, etc… all pouring over how to help.  Then we interviewed a new therapist, really hoping we found the one to help us.  Today was his first appointment and we were not disappointed – THANK GOD for leading us to this guy!

 
It is SO HARD and we constantly have to be thinking ten steps ahead. There are times we just weep and questions why….but know why.  We are here to help these kids grow to be productive member of society, happy, and loving God and others.  We have been chosen to be on this journey and although at times we feel very lonely, we are never alone. Main two request at this time…

1) D to quickly get into the program he is on the waiting list for. It seems doubtful him getting in will line up with him needing to leave where he is, BUT we serve a God who specializes in the impossible so we plead on his behalf, please intercede with/for us.

2) That A will have a break through with this new therapist.

Okay, one more...

3) We are often emotionally exhausted. The struggles of keeping life going, work going, kiddos from imploding really does a number on a relationship……not even sure how to ask for prayer on that front – but I am sure you get it...

Thank you for your continued interest, encouragement, prayers, love, hugs, good vibes, mojo, etc… there is not a day that passes that we don’t need it all!